keep on coming back.

i couldnt forget everything.
it juz like keep on coming back.
i thought i can forget it.
i thought its ok if we didnt become fren nor bro and sis.
i thought i can live without it.
i thought all of tat.
but i juz couldnt forget it.
i dunno why we can become like tis.
Jabyss,im so sorry tat pinched u so hard.
im so sorry.
first,i really thought tat its ok i lost u as my fren nor bro cos u hate us.
and think we care for u juz wan benefits
u are wrong.
totally wr0ng.
wat benefits we can get from u??
i really do wanna end tis war asap.
but thn i couldnt talk wif u
everytime i see u.
feel like wanna talk to u.
so do yau men i guess.
but thn im juz not brave enough.
i dunno why oso. TT
i can only forget tis thingy when i was having fun(really very fun)
but thn after having fun.
automaticly da thingy come back.
my god.
i dunno wat to do...
can u show me how to walk tis long and crazy journey??
im having a warmest family last time at skul.
but thn now i feel da coldest family.
i used to hav a funny cheerful bro.
but now...
it was juz like i close my eyes for awhile.
when i open it back.
everything changed.
change to sumthg terrible.
i wished tat i never pinched u.
im so regret!!!
but i really didnt know i pniched u so hard.
i really dunno.
im juz so sorry for tat.
i felt sorry too.
tat time saw ur blog.
u say we care for u so much is wan sumthg. is all FAKE.
tats really hurt.
really really do hurt.
i dun wan to continue tis war anymore.
it juz so hurting man.
it juz making me feel so bad.
losing a bro like u really make me feel so bad.
juz like wat elisa say.
the warmest bro i ever met.
haiz.
now i really dunno wta to do anymore.
see shi ask me to let it be.
i really wanna let it be.
let god help me make da decision.
"im still trying rite now" >.<
trying to let it be....let it be....
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juz back from skul.
today hari koku oso not nice geh.
felt so boring
da senaman robik oso not nice geh.
those ppl oso not active de.
didnt hav much fun.
lats last sat was so fun
da senaman robik.
i guess everyone enjoys it so much.
but thn today like very shy only.
haiz.
i oso dunno shy wat.
lols.
though today we cant really see da teacher doing wat.
but thn i agak agak lar.
i was shaking my ass.
thn me and beatrice was so funny.
hitting da ass.
lols.
kinda fun to me. =)
today ntg much lar.
kaka.
tats all for today.
needa go work later.
ciaoz.

"LET IT BE"
still trying^^